Through the Mind of an Autistic Child...
I wrote this when i was thirteen. It was the first piece of creative writing outside of school work i had done. It was triggered by the diagnosis of my youngest sister with Autism, when she was two. I’d like for you to remember that every person with autism is different and should be treated as individuals, just like you and me. I had written this poem to highlight some consistent...
One of our biggest downfalls as women is our constant need for attention.
Here’s a warning for the ladies. A certain type of guy exists which we must be wary of. Or rather, there are guys who exist who can morph into the guy we must be wary of. I call him “Mr Ultimatum”. Growing up, we’re used to the type of guy who will pursue a girl for sex. He’ll be upfront in asking for what he wants. He’ll ask you to come over, tell you how sexy you are, squeeze your bum, or...
PYT. You ask her how she got so far without being tried You ask how she got away And tell her what you’d do to her if you had her. She smirks. Twinkle in her eye and she turns away. You expect her to allow that to happen? She’s lasted this long and you think your blunt one-liners will be the tipping point? Boy, please.
I’m often misunderstood. But very rarely, I stumble across people who completely and utterly GET me. They are searching for what I’m searching for. The beauty in this world that nobody can find. Yes, sure, show me a photograph of a sunset or the mountains or whatever and I probably won’t care…it’s a photograph taken by somebody I don’t personally know. That takes away 70% of the story for me. I...
I'm in Love
I have to say it… I’m in love. I’m in love with the smile in my mum’s voice when she’s just poured her heart out to me over the phone… because she knows she knows she can trust me more than any other person she knows, because she made me. I’m in love with the joy in my little sister’s eyes every time she sees me. She knows that I will consistently be in her life and never leave her. I’m in love...
Me Covering “I’ll Be There” J x
Me covering/remixing Echoes of Silence by The Weeknd. Headphones on.. this is to be listened to on high volume. Enjoy. J x
She was young at heart but old in her ways. A classic sort of beauty; soft and sweet. She knew what she wanted and what was best for her. Although the superego was in sync with the ego, her id routinely came out to play. Her spirit poured from her eyes; she was gracious through every meaning of the word. Despite her emanated innocence, radiating like a house on fire, her passion for her past and...
Rules in Love
To actively look for love is futile. Love is unselfish. Love is kind. Love is patient. Love is easy. Actively ‘looking’ is one of the most selfish and unkind things you can do to yourself and your potential Love (whoever he/she may be) and through looking you will be unknowingly pushing Your Love away. Love has no particular order, and so the following musings on a few aspects of the period...
The right way to be.
I don’t know what’s the right way to be. Aggressive is sexy and if I’m passive, you reject me. You want classy not trashy, yet if I want to classily talk it out its not stimulating. Hair up, hair down. Breasts out, no modesty. Legs covered, no controversy. Provocation is excitement and humility is boring. What do you want from me, so that you can want me? I’ll be your mother, your sister, your...
Now Let's Be Honest...
I haven’t written in a while and that’s mostly due to my feeling of dishonesty towards myself. How can you write about your experiences to others when you can’t even be genuine to yourself? So I gave myself some time, as I owe it to myself. It’s only healthy. Now something funny happened while I was giving myself this time; I lost contact with a couple people, and I developed an enhanced...
The world is such a horrible and unsafe place. I just wanna chill with God.
I admire anyone who has a passion for what they love. There’s nothing more inspiring than a proactive person. A person who quietly possesses strong focus is so endearing it hurts. To get to that place takes a self motivated, present character who doesn’t let external entities or unfortunate circumstances discourage them from accomplishing their goals. The loudest person in the room is...
I get on with people better when i’m by myself.
I no longer eat or sleep. (And no. It’s not because of love.) Food makes me ill and i get nightmares. i need TIME.
Just a thought.
So today I was on the phone to a good friend of mine. She asked me if I expected my life to be where it is right now. I said no. Children are innocent and excitable. They try anything and explore everything. Putting a foot out of place is actually a lesson being learnt and all consequences are soon forgotten. I remember spending a few minutes making a decision: sometimes just making a choice and...
Playa’s keep playing… Because of Women?
You’re out with your ‘boyfriend’ and you realise you’re receiving unwanted looks (or a glare worthy of a thousand pre-heated knives preparing for target) from another girl who always seems to be around every corner… It finally gets to you so you ask him who she is. Before you know it, he’s on the fast train to BS city. ‘Some girl who’s obsessed with me’ ‘a jealous ex’ or perhaps she’s simply...
I’m too busy to be caught up with intermittences of the heart.
Does anyone else
helvetii: Have flashbacks to the most embarrassing moments of their lives every once in a while? I shudder every time
The world would be a better place without denial
For every ‘playa’ there is a girl who made him adopt that mindset and several...
My Perspective on Beauty
I’ve always admired independent females who have a distinct style, a way of being in the action yet removed. An inviting nature with a motherly touch yet a vulnerable core. A vulnerability which can only be reached through her eyes and only the elite beings of this earth are worthy to penetrate her enigmatic façade. These women are role models and how I would expect a lady to carry herself. There...
The Relation of Time and Love.
I could use this post to lash out at those who have recently shocked me by their behaviour. I could be immature and say exactly what I’m thinking, bluntly so. This would be the ideal place to explain myself, really say my side of the story, but if my verbal expression of the story didn’t work, then what will words typed on a screen do? So instead, I’m going give one last attempt at giving help,...
"So much about this crazy game they call Love,...
These song lyrics in Karina Pasian’s song ‘Slow Motion’ reached my ears at the age of 16, 4 years ago. I didn’t understand what she meant. If she loved him and he clearly loved her back, what was she waiting for? Be together. People with the mindset of waiting irritated me, because at that point that was all i wanted. It’s incredible how a person’s view on a...
The Dark Side of Friendship.
This was a topic I believed so easily understood and accomplished as a child. I- like- you –because- you’re- funny- so- lets- be- friends sort of thing. Let’s fast forward 10 years and see how complicated ‘friendship’ has become. The concept has been completely manipulated. Around the age of new adulthood, independence and ambition, new factors to ‘friendships’ are introduced; ego, image, who can...